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Questioning Misanthropy

I think New York is simultaneously everything that I've ever hated and everything I've wished (mostly in passing) to be a part of...

Is part of the exponential acceleration of the human race the resultant social dynamics created by living around so many people? I could take off in a dead sprint from where I am at this very moment and it would take me a while to run into someone. This is where I've lived nearly my entire life. Being in a place where you can merely look around you from a rooftop vantage and see the dwellings of millions of people is truly boggling from my perspective. The highest vantage point from my home yields the view of exactly seven people's homes.

I can't even bring myself to talk too much about this fucking "art" thing without becoming disgusted in the slightest with myself and the world, but at the same time I can't divorce it. There is the aspect of microcosm in which I thrive, the seclusion, the honing of skills, the maturity and development of mechanisms without external influences. That being said, the human in me wants to test the waters... gauge my personal satisfaction with my own little worlds against some sort of battery of external trial.

I will cycle in and out perhaps, as certainly many have done before me. IN In in, out ouT OUT. Recursively, but Never, ever, Forever.

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ima_compooter
Sep. 16th, 2009 03:18 am (UTC)
NEVER FOREVER
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